To Have Faith

I can't seem to get beyond the idea,

to believe in a God, not just the one

of the world, but a sense of Universe.

It's not even of logic of a puzzle.

A God; a Spirit.

Just to feel Him, in the spirit with my soul, if there is even.

Live like there's any hope to have an eternal legacy;

never forgotten.

A witness of being.

Faithless, you might call me.

To be faithless, there must first be something,

in which with my soul to believe.

He tells me to have blind faith.

I'd love to, sorry.

It's not that I don't want to.

I just don't.

To have faith, there first must be something in which to believe.

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It wasn't a resentment, logic bomb or laziness that traces my absence; 

it just wasn't - that's my point.